syakatsura

I have thought about what I've been through and how that changed me over the course of 3 years. I have become something I wished I never would. I have become emotionally numb. Over the course of 3 short years, too many things happened to me. My best friend's death. My friend's suicide. The recent breakup of my parents. My "friends" ignoring me. Being alone for too long. My brothers not socializing with me. It's like I don't exist most of the time. My other best friend's financial problem. He's homeless and getting pissed off at his life. I'm beginning to fear for the worst. And the lack of comfort I get from my parents every time I

Please note, I am not an attention whore. I do however like getting attention but do not give anyone dA drama to get it. Now the question, Does any one of you, that watch me, actually watch me? I know that there are a few of you that do, but I know there are a lot of others in my watcher list that are still active, yet, when I submit a new pic or something, it gets like what? 6 total views, 1-2 comments, and no favs. I admit, I really don't care about favs. All I care about is a little feedback like; Is it good? Is it bad? Are there a few things I can change or improve? I actually want you guys to critique my work so I know what to do the n

Update: Still feeling emotionally numb from my birthday. Yeah, that day hit me pretty hard and it still hurts. From the answers from my recent poll, it appears that most of you don't want me to change Syler's name to Nero. I would like to know why. Seriously, feedback really helps or I really can't make any improvements....like...at all. That would pretty much explain my long ass disappearances on dA. Then again I'm still changing his name when I actually draw a redesign of him. (yet again) I'm going through In Flight Training with the Air National Guard one weekend every month till I go to boot camp in San Antonio, Texas sometime after Jan